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Billy Dee Williams is going to be at Phoenix Comicon 2011. So is Stan Lee, BUT FUCKING LANDO.

SHIT JUST GOT REAL.

I am an avid Star Wars fan via osmosis and am so excited! Very happy and excited to be officially part of the event this year.

It is so hot in this room that sometimes I literally want to fall asleep in the living room on the floor. It takes me an hour to fall asleep at night because I keep tossing and turning trying to find a cooler position. The window faces the sun all day and I don't have any curtains, so it's brutal during the day too, but during the day I can escape to the living room usually. But at night there's no escaping, and it doesn't make sense. THERE IS NO MORE SUN. It's still above ninety here at night, BUT NO SUN. I have a fan, and it doesn't help. I don't know if it's just me. The living room and the other bedroom stay cool, but they're not facing the sun during the day.

So... I have no idea.

I have other problems as well, but writing them down will make me seem like a bigger idiot than I already know I am, so I'm going to bitch about the heat.

Carry on.

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This is a difficult question, but it would either be My Chemical Romance or Lydia. They would both have to play their entire discography - Desert Song would need to be present, and there would need to be a full band performance of A Story for Supper for the latter, with Mindy, not Maria. Her and Haley full band would also be fantastic.

I'm way into Dear and the Headlights lately. I'd always kind of heard them since my friends like them, so I'd hear them on roadtrips, but I stole a bunch of music from one of them this weekend (Courtney Marie Andrews, more of the Honey Trees that I didn't have) and I got both albums and I love it. I want to do dirty things to this guy's voice. Unf.

I was doing that music/Lydia meme, and I sort of forgot. There's more, but there's two songs that have summed up this summer of my life more adequately than the others. This is the first.

( I just came to say, you'll never see me again, and I miss you already )

Feeling a bit lost right now. Three more days.

MOCKINGJAY DAY!

I called Wal-mart at midnight to see if they had a copy, since the book places around here suck, but they didn't. I was so sure they would that I go super psyched for it, and when they didn't I stamped home all huffy and was going to watch trashy dramas about Europeans (aka the Tudors) on Netflix, and then someone leaked a PDF copy on Tumblr. <3 Oh Tumblr I fucking love you.

It is now 6am and I spent the past four hours reading from my computer. I'm still planning on going to get the hardcover copy today (so I can clutch it and hold it and whisper soothing things to it), but mannn.

I cried about three times. I AM NOT ASHAMED.

My mind is all kinds of trippy. I really don't even know what to say. Just. Yea.

I guess, after all that, I don't know why they call them kids books. This book totally has the capability to mess up a child.

I fucking love it.

I have a sinus infection, not an abscess like I thought. I have antibiotics, which will take down the swelling and stop the continuous headache I've had, and the red in my eyes will go away at some point in the next week. I already feel better. I feel like myself, as opposed to the sad creature that was sleeping for twelve hours a day and not going to work. I hate being sick.

I bit off the nails I put on. Just as predicted. Pfft. But not my real ones, which I guess is the important part. I have more fake ones, so I'll do those after work today. And probably bite them off by Monday, but whatever.

I got a lot of new music yesterday, but nobody's really caught my ear except for this band called Fanfarlo. They remind me of Margot - folk-y, acoustic, indie stuff. It doesn't kick me in the stomach like Margot, but it's not bad. Any suggestions flist? I got some electronic, pop-y stuff too, which I'm not feeling, which just reinforces the fact that there is definitely a distinctive type of music that I like. I try to be one of those "if it sounds good, I'll listen to it!" but I am wayyy too picky to be that type of person. Electronic, pop, country, rap, I just don't get it.

I liked not going to work when I was sick, but the downside was that I was sick. And now I'm less sick, and ready to go to work, and when I get there, I will want to be sick so I don't have to be there. Life.

In the past two weeks I've driven 3000 miles, seen Lydia in 8 different cities 8 different days, heard songs I thought I'd never hear in person, and turned 22 years old.

In three weeks I move to Tempe.

Back to work and obsessing over things I shouldn't be obsessing about and feeling sad. I miss tour.

I don't miss the humidity though. Seriously. What the heck.

Sometimes I wonder how I can be such a fuckup.

Leaving tomorrow to Phoenix, and then on Tuesday we leave for New Mexico. It's alllll happening. I'll be gone for ten days. I haven't packed or bought anything yet. I have problems.

Before I move onto MY SONG OF... RIGHT NOW, tour calender~

Jul 20 - The Launch Pad, Albuquerque, New Mexico
Jul 22 -The Conservatory, Oklahoma City, Oklahoma
Jul 23- The Loft, Dallas, Texas
Jul 24 - Emo's, Austin, Texas
Jul 25 - Sam's Burger Joint, San Antonio, Texas
Jul 26 - Mango's, Houston, Texas
Jul 27 - Spanish Moon, Baton Rouge, Louisiana
Jul 28 - One Eyed Jacks, New Orleans, Louisiana

Intense. I'm not so stoked the only off day we have is in Oklahoma; I wish it were in San Antonio. I love San Antonio. Austin's downtown scene is awesome too; kitschy little Korean place, we will see you again. Of course... I am stoked out of my mind to see New Orleans. It's a 24 hour straight drive back, which I am less than happy about, but whatever, NEW ORLEANS. We weren't originally going to go to Baton Rouge or New Orleans, but since we were so (relatively) close, we added it. I get to spend my birthday in New Orleans. At least part of it, before the drive from hell, of course.

Looking at that, I guess I understand why people think we're insane. But this will be the last Lydia tour, and this is probably going to be the last mult-city tour we do, even for other bands we love. After this, I think it's time to be real grown ups. One last hurrah though.

Time for a Margot song.

( And the girls are getting sick, of snorting coke up in the bathroom while their boyfriends pick up chicks. Darling, I'm lost. )

Just kind of smacked me in the face that in just about a month I'll be living in Phoenix again. So much to do.

Envy on the Coast is breaking up. :( It's the summer of bands I love breaking up. So bummed I didn't go to the last show in Phoenix. Just like... man. Lowcountry feels so different than Lucy Gray, and I wasn't sure I liked it at first, but good lord, it's just so raw. Ryan Hunter, marry
me.

Also finally caught the White Collar S2 premiere. EPIC I SAY, EPIC.

And now, songs.

( Now I swallow anything that reminds me I am temporary )

So now that my computer lives~

SUMMER MUSIC MEME~

And by meme, I mean, it's not really a meme, it's something I've been doing while my computer's been broken, BUT FEEL FREE TO JOIN IN. Songs I've been listening to repeatedly during these past few months. Nothing entirely groundbreaking to see here, really. It's kind of a "songs I've been listening to repeatedly/ Lydia will no longer be a band so I must write down how these songs make me feel" thing.

Spoiler alert: these will all be nearly Lydia songs.

( You will never waste my time )

MY LAPTOP IS CONNECTING TO THE INTERNET.

That is all. :D

I lied, that's not all. I have no idea what happened. I hadn't turned on my computer in a few days and I wanted to update my iPod with some new playlists, so I turned it on and I noticed the connection button was showing that it was... connecting. I opened Firefox, held my breath and closed my eyes, and IT CONNECTED. I have no idea what happened, but I'm dancing around happy anyway. I don't even know what to do with myself! I have to catch up on Glee and HIMYM (there are a few episodes in each I didn't catch) and remember what I used to do on the internet before it stopped working in May. I've been watching Dr. Who on BBC America whenever I can catch it, and how I adore Eleven and Amy. So cute! So I want to start watching that cycle soon. There's music I need to download and jobs I need to apply for and this makes it just so much easier. Oh Firefox, I missed you~

There's something I want to do concerning Lydia and song meanings and summer songs, but that will be another post for another time. I just wanted to TALK IN BIG LETTERS about my laptop working again. She is officially Zombie Computer. Since she came back from the dead after two months. Huzzah! I'm going to renew my paid account when I'm done with tour, so probably not til August. I don't have a very joyous icon right now, I'll need to fix that. THIS IS A JOYOUS EVENT. Thank you for the comments on my last post. I hope I can start replying more now that I have steady access to the net. :)

In unrelated but related news, we had the walkthrough of the hotel for Saboten today. It's beautiful. My area is nice and out front and has lots of light and a nice tiled floor and glass doors. It also has a gazillion balconies, so I'm terrified some idiot kid is going to take a swan dive off one while trying to get an ~epic picture or something equally stupid, but it's pretty. And has a water park. SOMETIMES IN LIFE THE BENEFITS JUST OUTWEIGH THE RISKS.

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We must blend into the choir
Sing as static with the whole
We must memorize nine numbers and deny we have a soul

I am so drunk right now the world is totally spinning.

FUCK YEA DRUNK POSTS. YA'LL KNOW IF THIS WERE FACEBOOK YOU'D BE LIKING THIS LIKE NOBODY'S FUCKING BUSINESS AMIRITE?!!

Hanging out with my surrogate older bro Josh and my bff Lisa and totally just GETTING SMASHED MAN. I LOVE THESE PEOPLE AND I AM OKAY WITH LIFE AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU.

THE END.

How do I type so well when drunk? THE WORLD MAY NEVER KNOW.

Lost my paid account. Until I rectify the computer situation, I probably won't renew it. HANDY EDITING COMMENT TOOL, I DO MISS YOU HOWEVER. /woe

We bid on new shifts. I got a stupid shift with stupid days off. I always get a stupid shift, but I usually get Fridays off. Not so. DENIED. I'm still the last person in my bid group, so I get leftovers. It's still a stab in the gut though. Fail. Next week will be my last Friday off for a very long time, so I will savor it. And my next vacation is the week after the Lydia tour. Trying to trade it, but with my luck that will not happen. Two weeks of not working. I'm actually really scared, but I'm working nearly every single day until the middle of July (in the midst of a fourteen day stretch, heyo) so I'm trying to soothe my nerves. Not going to Texas is not an option. It sounds stupid, but it's important to us, so I suppose it's not that stupid.

Still torn up about Lydia. They are my band and I both excited for new music and so sad it will be over. Life will go on.

Started replaying the first Kingdom Hearts with my little brother. THE FACT THAT I CANNOT SKIP CUT SCENES STILL MAKES ME WANT TO KNIFE BABIES IN THE FACE. Rageeee.

Lydia is breaking up. I .. am sad without words.

Not the text I wanted to wake up to in the morning.

Computer still not working. Woe is me.

My computer will not hook up to my internet. I know the internet is working, I can see the signal strength, and when I click connect the box where it shows wireless networks disappears. I had it unplugged, and I didn't notice the battery dying (even though it beeps at me annoyingly; I am so observant) and so it just upped and died. I plugged it back in, and that's when the box problem started happening. I've done everything I can think of to make it work, and it will NOT connect. I'm using my mother's extremely horrible Dell right now to check my bank account and whatnot, and plead for help. I don't know what to dooo. The internet withdrawals haven't set in yet - I am still horribly apathetic toward anything at the moment - but it's very useful for banking and Mapquest and other things I kind of need the net for. My phone's only so good.

HELP ME FLIST, IF YOU CAN.

In other news, still very not cool on life right now. I bought a pack of cigarettes. It's pretty bad. Okay, it's not that bad. It's just that on nights like these, when it's gorgeous out and there are stars and I'm not sleeping and have nothing to do, I feel so pathetically lonely.

But, I am waking up to make my mom breakfast in the morning. Making food is most definitely not my forte, but I am feeling optimistic! If I manage to make even something not burnt, I will be so pleased with myself. xD

I have worked twelve days in a row, and now I am off for three days and don't know what to do with myself. HUZZAH.

It's also a day for drinking, but I am poor until Friday, so drinking may not occur too heavily. Tomorrow I am supposed to take my friend to get her license - since she is older than me and we have discussed this for three years now. >.> But to be fair, I moved away and we're both lazy and our days off don't match and ... I have my license, so it's not my top priority. xD But she does not! So we are finally getting it done. I hope.

I got into a fight with my mom last week and we're still not really talking, but I am going to make her breakfast on Sunday. I'm looking to get a little creative, and not just the regular French toast/eggs deal. Suggestions? Something easy? I am a horrible cook, but I'm adventurous, and I'd like to do something fun, so have at it.

I haven't caught up on Glee for the past two weeks yet, but I watched this week's HIMYM, and I AM DISAPPOINT. But then I saw the new White Collar crossover promos with the other USA shows and was like OMG MATT BOMER SWOON. /cough

I've broken down where I'd like to visit in a few weeks into a few locations: Washington, Washington, D.C., New York, New Orleans (new one), and back to San Francisco. I've been to SFO (I have found myself constantly abbreviating city names to their major airports; curse you American Airlines and your brainwashing) a few times, but I've not been by myself, and I haven't done a lot of things I've wanted to do, like Fisherman's Wharf and Alcatraz. If I end up doing this, it's going to be on an extremely tight budget, but I can make it work. Mainly I just walk around like a tourist and take pictures with my phone. Like, ya know, a normal tourist does.

All in all, working has been taking my mind off how utterly miserable I was feeling. I'd work, come home, and sleep, jump up, clean some stuff, and shoot off to work again. Too much free time makes me a sad panda I guess.

Off to bushwhack my eyebrows. I expect your sympathy.

Excuse me while I get righteous airline employee on you.

I don't take International calls, so I don't really have to deal with the mess going on overseas at the moment, but I've had enough angry people come through to me accidentally that I feel some of it. I know it sucks. I know it's horrible that we can't get people out until next week, that everything we have is either canceled or completely full, that your flight was canceled on Friday and we rebooked you for today and then that flight got canceled. I know you're stuck in a foreign country running out of medicine and your kids are back here with nobody to watch them and you can't afford a hotel anymore so you're sleeping at an airport with no showers and you have to go to a funeral and you're missing your sister's wedding and you just want to get home and sleep in your own bed.

But do you really think we're holding planes back for our own benefit? We're losing twenty million dollars a day, we are not trying to purposefully keep you from getting back home to your family. What if our plane did fly and then it crashed? Sleeping on a floor for five days is better than losing your life.

That being said, I know it sucks and I definitely don't blame people for complaining and most people have been relatively understanding, but I've had enough crazy people thinking that we're intentionally not flying for some twisted purpose of fucking them over that it's irritating. Not that I don't understand where that particular belief stems from. Because fucking you over, we can do. But not in this case.

Anyway. I talked to my supervisor about potentially transferring to the airport in Phoenix in August, and we found an opening. I have to apply and interview, and chances are that the starting date is going to be way too early for when I plan on moving, but I'm trying to stay optimistic. Not that I really want to work at the airport. At all. It's way easier to just push my mute button and talk trash when nobody can hear me, but you can't really press a mute button when you're talking to someone face to face. Plus it's the airport. Just. No. But I'll take what I can get to stay employed with American. I was really apprehensive when I first took this job, but the company's been nothing but accepting and helpful and lenient, so I can't complain too much.

And my cousin's getting married next year in Hawaii, and I'd really like to be able to afford to go. First class. Because I am shameless.

PUT DOWN WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING AND GO SEE HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON.

Okay, well, maybe when you have time, or money, or whatever, but SEE IT.

When I get paid next week I will go back and see it 3D. So cute! So adorable! So nicely told! And then I will buy it on DVD.

I feel like I should be somewhat less obvious of the fact that I am squealing over a kids movie BUT IT WAS GREAT SO.

And that was your public service announcement for the day; remember kids, stay in school, only you can prevent forest fires, and you should only try hard drugs once. Yep.

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