Glory

We don't want to live past forty.

I'm afraid I won't have anything to inspire me to live after that.

Or we could just die young and save ourselves.

ala Sic Transit Gloria.

Something needs to happen to make my worth living.  Till forty at least.

After that worms be damned.

Build

 So the most I've ever done in my life is to perhaps write something.

I want to make guitars.  I want to build ships.  I want to stuff an animal.  

Hell, I'd like to bake a cake.

Anything beautiful.

...scratch that.

Beauty is now overrated.

...at least the physical kind.

I can't even give myself an out even when I try.